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The Craving for Stories is the Craving for Life Itself ...

One of the first things that we yearn for as children is to hear a story.

The main thing that drives us to learn to read in the beginning is the knowledge that when we do master that skill we will finally be able to "hear" stories for ourselves, and the first real books we read are story books.

This craving for a good story stays with us as long as we live. We never outgrow it.

Indeed, it seems to me to be a psychological fact (although I have never seen it in print any where else) that we are largely driven by a compulsion to make each part of our lives turn out to be a deeply satisfying story. Trying to get our lives "right" in a way that satisfies our in-built story sense is what keeps us going.

The thing that keeps us from seeing deeply enough into ourselves to be directly aware of how our story sense drives us in life is probably the fact that we seldom pursue just one story straight through to the end. Life forces us to take a lot of things into account all at once, and each problem that we have to deal with is potentially a separate story. What's more, as a practical matter, pursuing one story sometimes implies other stories that we have to pursue first or along the way.

And so in the end, our lives become a tapestry of interwoven adventures, because pursuing an adventure is what we call the process of turning some part of our lives into a pattern of events that makes a good, satisfying story.

Pursuing adventures, then, is the way that we try to turn our lives into a tapestry of stories, and Writing-to-Learn Adventure #1: (The Organizing Adventure of Life) is designed to teach you the art of sorting out the separate strands that make up the tapestry of lives. When you learn to see your own life and the lives of others in these terms and find the organizing patterns, you begin to see yourself and other people and your relationships to them clearly.

You begin, probably for the first time, to get a real handle on some of the most important practical matters in your life.


A Special Effect of
Writing-to-Learn Adventure #1

The easiest way to acquire the practical inner skills to be learned from Writing-to-Learn Adventure #1: (The Organizing Adventure of Life) is to apply the concepts to fictional characters. The concepts work to clarify the workings of people in real life. But real life is messy, and our knowledge of other people is always incomplete.

In the characters that writers create, however, even in works presented as biographies (or autobiographies), things are always much more simple. We have fewer details to work with; the details have been carefully selected for us; and part of the art of writing in the first place is to simplify just enough to make character understandable while still making the character realistic.

The result is that it is easier in written works to figure out what the organizing adventure of each character's life is. It is easier not only because we have only limited, selected details organized into a pattern for us to work with. It is also easier because authors tend to think of the characters they invent as having an organizing adventure for their lives (even though I am unaware of any writers who actually say that they work this way).

Still, the case examples from fiction and biography in The Organizing Adventure of Lifeare very straightforward, compelling, and downright useful in learning how to think of life as a tapestry of adventures with an organizing adventure as its theme. The way of thinking that these cases illustrate grows very naturally out of the works themselves.

The bottom line here is this:

The way of thinking to be studied in The Organizing Adventure of Life is so useful in practical living and the use of fictional cases is such a natural way to learn the basic concepts that this one Writing-to-Learn Adventure could change the way that we "do" education in our society.

It could also greatly elevate the social value that we assign to the teaching and study of literature in general.

At the very least, it will be interesting to see how close to right this view of the special effect of The Organizing Adventure of Life turns out to be.


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The Point Is ...

You can actually develop new insights that can greatly improve the quality of your life, just by reading and writing about the right things and then revising and revising your work until you know you've got it right.

For example, with just a little shove in a new direction, you can easily learn how to understand other people better than you ever have before. And at the same time, you can learn how you can have a great love life, if you're willing and able to do the work.

All of this by just writing, with a little help.

That's what you get in the Writing-to-Learn Adventure #1. And all it costs you is the time it takes you to do the work.

You get the materials to do the Writing-to-Learn Adventures absolutely free.

(Yes, this is a "dot com," and I do make money here — but not in any way that dilutes the quality of what you get for free here.)

What you will be doing specifically in Writing-to-Learn Adventure #1 is applying a new conceptual framework in writing about your own life and behavior, about other people, and especially about fictional characters.

This new way of thinking turned up as part of a larger research project of mine, and it actually does a lot more than I've mentioned so far. So, just for the record, here's a longer list of benefits (along with information about the work for you to do):


How Can Writing-to-Learn Adventure #1 improve the Quality of Your Life?

1. You will understand yourself and other people in a new, more intuitive way.

2. You will learn a conceptual framework that will help you see clearly what the organizing adventure of your own life is and put together the best love life for yourself that you can have.

3. It will change what you think of as the basics of education and introduce you to new possibilities of self-education.

4. It will teach you to use many things that you already know in a new way to get more out of life. In particular, it will transform the way you think about reading a novel or watching a movie.

5. Like all Writing-to-Learn Adventures, it will take your understanding of the writing-to-learn process to a higher level.

6. And there is a special bonus for anyone who plans to write novels, short stories, plays, or biographies: The new way of understanding people that you will learn about here will give an enormous boost to your ability to create characters for the stories you tell.


Your Work in Writing-to-Learn Adventure #1:

Every Writing-To-Learn Adventure comes in two parts: (1) The reading part and (2) the writing part. You simply read the material that is given to you at this Web site. Then you write about it to learn it. Samples of how you might write about it are included as part of the reading material. The object in doing the writing is to internalize the concepts in the reading material and make them a part of the way that you think. As I am sure you already know, learning is a lot more than mere memorization.

As you read Writing-to-Learn Adventure #1 (The Organizing Adventure of Life), pay special attention to the cases used to explain the concepts. They are included in the write up on this Web site and in the free PDF ebook version of the material available at Lulu. You will find four sample case write-ups from the ebook later on this page, if you want to see some examples now. Writing up similar cases for yourself, using the things you have read, the movies you have seen, and your experiences with other people — or absolutely anything else — is the writing part of Writing-to-Learn Adventure #1.

The end product of your own writing is a kind of analytical painting — a conceptual picture that is a work of art — of someone (a real person, a fictional character, or yourself). It may be as short as a paragraph or as long as a novel. Or even longer.

The length depends strictly on how far you want to develop your understanding.

As you can tell from the sample case materials below* (especially the last two), you could even use the process to write a novel, a biography, or a short story.

*Just below the Start Box for The Organizing Adventure of Life

You will seldom get a case worked out to your own long-term satisfaction the first time. You will have to come back and rethink it and rewrite it any number of times until you satisfy your own standards. Of course, the more you use the material in your writing, the better you will use it in understanding yourself and other people.


It's time now to deliver the benefits — after just one last point:

Your mind grows by thinking, and learning to write as a matter of habit is a practical part of learning to think.


This Is the Start Box for Writing-to-Learn Adventure #1:

The Organizing Adventure of Life
Understand Yourself and Other People and Make Your Love Life Work


 

This is probably the most dangerous misconception that you have picked up in life:

We're all pretty much alike. We all have the same basic needs and want the same things out of life.

This statement is dangerous because it is about half true. It is in fact a popular, slightly dramatic way of saying that we are all members of the same human family. And that much is true, of course.

But if you accept this statement as anywhere near the whole truth, you are ruling out basic insights that can dramatically improve the quality of your life.

Indeed, most people are profoundly different from you, and failing to sort out these differences can cause you many problems and a great deal of pain and suffering.

What you will find in Writing-to-Learn Adventure #1 is a new conceptual framework to help you understand yourself and other people and your relationships with them. Once you learn to see your life and your relationships clearly, you can do a better job of getting your life on track and keeping it there — and you can do a better job of choosing the relationships that you want to nourish and of figuring out how to do it.

For example, within this new framework, you will learn how to get the best love life that you can have. ...


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Sample Case Materials: Applying the Concepts of The Organizing Adventure of Life:

Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth Bennett, etc. in Pride and Prejudice

I am a Jane Austen fan. For decades, I read her novels — all of them — a couple of times a year or more. But her six novels have been turned into such excellent visual productions that I watch DVDs now instead of reading.

The DVD version of Pride and Prejudice from A&E/BBC is my favorite (although the lack of closed captioning is a real flaw).

You will learn a lot at this Web site about egocentricity because you have to thoroughly understand the concept in order to sort out other people and the organizing adventures of their lives.

That is the reason for the emphasis on Jane Austen here. She was the world's greatest authority on the subject. She explored and delineated the widest variety of egocentric behavior in the characters that she created.

Most of the problems that her heroines have to deal with originate in someone else's egocentric behavior. She knew the subject from A to Z, and reading her novels a number of times is probably the best and easiest way to get an education on the subject.

You do, of course, learn things better when you learn them the hard way. But hard experience is a hard teacher.

 

One of the most useful things about Jane Austen is that she makes the driving, habitual mindset of her characters absolutely clear in terms of the way it affects their behavior — and she also frequently gives us the rationalizations that they use to conceal their motives from themselves. This clarity about the motivating drives of behavior and the masks of rationalization is important here because it is the thing that makes it so easy to understand so many of her characters in terms of the organizing adventure of their lives.

Applying the organizing adventure concept to Mr. Darcy, for example, is very straightforward. In the first part of Pride and Prejudice, he organizes his life in terms of the social status adventure. He considers personal relationships, especially in the matter of marriage, strictly in terms of social repercussions, family social position and reputation, and the potential for one to to enhance, or at least publicly confirm, one's social position.

With this point of view firmly fixed as his automatic frame of reference, he simply can't wrap his mind around the possibility that anyone would choose to marry into a family with the obvious social and economic handicaps of the Bennetts — not to mention the fact that marriage to any of the Bennett women would involve becoming related to the mother of the family, who seems to have a complete void where one expects to find the social and personal graces.

Such considerations as how intelligent, attractive, socially accomplished, and downright decent Jane and Elizabeth might be are completely irrelevant to Mr. Darcy in the first part of the work. Indeed, he is astounded and dismayed, right through his first marriage proposal to Elizabeth, to find that he is irresistibly attracted to her. His own actions disturb him.

What he discovers is that Elizabeth isn't going to have anything to do with anyone as shallow and insensitive to the needs of other people as he has become. It is, of course, the organizing adventure that Mr. Darcy has chosen to guide him through life that has made him as shallow and insensitive as he is.

We see very little of the process of his transformation from one organizing adventure to another, but the final result is dramatic. Over a period of some months, he does manage to change himself. He makes the love adventure the organizing adventure of his life and comes to terms with what that means in the way of new attitudes and habitual patterns of behavior.

Why does he do it?

It almost certainly isn't just the fact that he can't get Elizabeth to marry him in the sorry inner state that he has fallen into. The source of his transformation is most likely the concatenation of that fact with other facts: The fact that Elizabeth so firmly and positively rejects him, the fact that she so clearly does not regard him as a decent sort of person and can give him her reasons in such unsettling detail (misguided as she is in some parts), the fact that he is profoundly unattracted to women (like the sisters of his friend Mr. Bingley) whose perceptions are governed by the same organizing adventure that he has adopted, and the fact that his organizing adventure has led him to stoop so such miserable behavior as actually concealing matters from his friend Mr. Bingley (specifically, the information that Elizabeth's sister Jane was in London all winter, where Mr. Bingley was, too.)

Sorting through all of these things, Mr. Darcy seems to have asked himself, "What the hell have I been doing?" And he seems to come to the conclusion that he just doesn't want to be the kind of person he is. What he discovers that he wants most out of life is a woman to love whom he can respect and admire for her intelligence, taste, and general good sense, instead of for the superficial qualities that he has fallen into the habit of focusing upon.

He discovers upon reflection that he has found in Elizabeth Bennett exactly the woman who suits him and changes the organizing adventure of his life to a love adventure — which in turn changes his attitudes and values and behavior and the choices that he makes.

As his new character unfolds, Elizabeth Bennett is in a position to witness the fruits of his transformation and to benefit from them. Her opinion of him changes dramatically, he offers again to marry her, and she accepts his second proposal.


Elizabeth Bennett has chosen love as the organizing adventure of her life long before the story opens. She tells her sister that she will only marry for love, and she makes the point absolutely clear in her refusals, first of Mr. Collins and then of Mr. Darcy. In contrast, her friend Charlotte Lucas (who married Mr. Collins) is willing to marry strictly for social position and economic security, which is obviously the organizing adventure of her life.

Elizabeth also makes it clear in her first attitude towards Mr. Wickham that she is not insensitive to economic necessities. As attracted to Mr. Wickham as she is in the early part of the work, she has no interest in marrying him, purely as a practical economic matter. Unlike her youngest sister (who does marry Mr. Wickham), she is aware that a happy marriage requires a certain minimum of economic resources to support it. Without that prospect, she is unwilling even to think about marriage.

She pursues the ideal of her love adventure consistently throughout the novel and winds up with what she wants, once she unwittingly drives Mr. Darcy to adopt the love adventure as the organizing adventure of his life, too, and become the sort of person she can love.


Mrs. Bennett is a more interesting case than she may seem to be on the surface. She is, I admit, an obnoxious, overbearing, irritating, tasteless, stupid person. The organizing adventure in her life, as she appears in the novel, is raising her daughters and getting them married, and like most stupid people, all of her efforts are counterproductive. Having her on your side is just about equivalent to having two people of average intelligence who are out to do you harm.

There are two basic distinctions that apply to all of the adventures in life:

(1) Whether they are carried out intelligently or unintelligently and

(2) Whether they have a purely egocentric focus or are at least tempered by some real concern for the welfare of others.

Mrs. Bennett is not only just about as unintelligent as people who can still function in society get to be. She is also almost purely egocentric. In her own view, of course, she isn't that way. She is working as best she can to help her daughters do well in life. But as you would expect of an egocentric, she is totally incapable of understanding that her version of what her daughters need to do well in life may not be what they want (as her behavior when Elizabeth rejects Mr. Collins' proposal clearly shows). And matters go just about the way you would expect them to go for a pure egocentric who is on the stupid side of the dividing line in humanity: Her efforts to help her daughters do them more harm than good.

In her egocentric behavior, she is very much like the early Mr. Darcy, who knows what is best for his friend Bingley and manipulates Mr. Bingley's life accordingly. The difference is that the early Mr. Darcy is an intelligent egocentric. But his own organizing adventure at that stage (the social status adventure) points him exactly in the wrong direction to be of any real benefit to his friend. All he manages to do is to make his friend miserable.

As for Mrs. Bennett, the thing that makes her case more interesting than it might be at first glance for most people is the fact that her concern for her daughters' welfare has a solid basis. She and her daughters do face the prospect of being penniless in life, if Mr. Bennett dies before the daughters are married. In the early nineteenth century, medicine was much more primitive than it is today; life spans were very short by modern standards; and there was an almost total lack of meaningful economic opportunities for women.

In short, living under the kind of pressure that Mrs. Bennett must have felt could undermine the mental functioning of almost any woman, without having five daughters to provide for.

To be sure, the woman is repugnant. I would hate to be related to her (although I actually was related to a very similar woman with none of Mrs. Bennett's real excuses — a woman whose demise, incidentally, was welcomed by all concerned). But I still feel more than a touch of sympathy for Mrs. Bennett because of the real threat of disaster that was a daily part of her life.


Phil Conners (Bill Murray) in Groundhog Day

If you are a Pride and Prejudice fan, Phil Conners in Groundhog Day is "déjà vu all over again" — a modern, strictly comic version of Mr. Darcy. And in general terms, the plot is much the same, too: Grossly egocentric man finds great woman attractive, suffers absolute rejection, can't get along without her, and can't win her affections until he transforms himself into a decent human being who is sensitive to the needs of others.

As in Pride and Prejudice, it turns out that no woman with any taste and sense will be attracted to such a man. But there is a new twist: The comic fantasy that the universe is built in such way that egocentric behavior beyond a certain point is absolutely unacceptable.

And Phil Conners goes beyond that point.

He exceeds the patience of the universe and invokes "the ultimate sanction:" The machinery of the universe refuses to move on and refuses to let him move on. It traps him in time and place, making him repeat the same day of his life over and over and over again until he transforms himself to meet (what ought to be) the minimal requirements of human conduct. He can't even get out of the bind that the universe has put him in by committing suicide. No matter what he does short of a complete remake of his personality, it's Groundhog Day all over again for him in Punxsutawney, Pennsylvania, when he wakes up in the morning.

It is a comic idea with a great deal of charm.

The early Phil Conners and the early Mr. Darcy are psychological twins, as are their transformed versions. Their original organizing adventures, however, are not quite the same, although they are closely related.

The early Mr. Darcy organizes his life around the social status adventure. That adventure is just a specific form of the ego trip adventure. It is based on a common, standard system for rationalizing and expressing an egocentric focus in life.

But in Groundhog Day, part of the comedy is the fact that Phil Conners is such a clod in the beginning that he doesn't need the crutch of any specific set of rationalizations. He organizes his life as a pure, unadulterated ego trip without regret, without apology, without any sense that he might even be imposing on other people, much less trying the patience of the universe itself. He just automatically goes through life using everyone he meets or works with as raw food to feed his sense of self-importance and superiority.

 

All of which brings us to an interesting point:

There are many seductive forms of rationalization that the ego trip adventure can take.

One can, for example, be easily seduced by the pursuit of social superiority, if one happens to have the social position and social access to make the mask plausible, as was the case with Mr. Darcy. Or one can be seduced by the ruthless pursuit of money, as has been the case with many corporate criminals of recent times; or by the ruthless pursuit of political power, as was the case with Hitler, George Wallace, and Orval Faubus (to mention just the examples that come most readily to mind for someone my age); or by the ruthless pursuit of religious beliefs or of any ideology, as is the case with all terrorists, domestic and foreign.

All of these adventures and many others are designed for no higher purpose than ego feeding.

But some people, like Phil Conners, don't need a specific form. They simply go through life feeding their egos on every target of opportunity, usually but not exclusively by belittling and insulting other people or by simple character assassination. After your first personal exposure, you can't miss the type. The implicit message in their behavior is that "I am superior because everyone else is inferior. The universe exists for my personal benefit, and it is outrageous for other people to claim equal right to the kind of attention that I deserve."

That is the message they construct their lives to reinforce in their own minds, the message that they feed on and intend for other people to swallow, too. This is the way that they develop a sense of self-worth.

In real life, such people are not comic characters.

They are extremely destructive, and sooner or later, you are virtually certain to meet one or more of them. Phil Conners is the embodiment of such a person.

The treatment in Groundhog Day is comic, but the message is profound.




Ben Franklin

When it comes to historical figures, opinions about their organizing adventures may depend on the biographical materials you consider.

In putting together this brief case on Ben Franklin's organizing adventure, I have limited myself to these short selections from the Web:

Benjamin Franklin — Wikipedia (also see History of Meteorology)

Benjamin Franklin: Man of Letters

Time: The Amazing Adventures of Ben Franklin: Why He Was a Babe Magnet
(Note: This was free content when I read it but may not be free by the time you read this case.)

Ben Franklin and his wife, Deborah, were a very enterprising pair. Their union was a common-law affair, never recorded in any church records, but they owned and ran a newspaper, a publishing business, a store, and a book shop. Ben also wrote a lot.

He put together many companies and organizations to meet public needs, and many of them exist today (the American Philosophical Society, the Pennsylvania Hospital, a public library, and an insurance company, etc.).

He was an inventor and did scientific research in electricity and meteorology. (He invented the Franklin Stove, the lightening rod, and the first postmasters' rate chart. His kite experiment and other work in electricity made him an international celebrity. He was the first American to keep detailed, accurate daily weather records and was among the first Americans to make daily weather forecasts. His interest in anatomy may even have led him to purchase cadavers to dissect while he lived in England.)

He was a public servant, a politician, and one of the founding fathers of our nation (Postmaster General of Philadelphia, a member of the Second Continental Congress who helped draft and signed the Declaration of Independence, our ambassador to France, and a delegate to the Constitutional Convention who signed the Constitution).

He pursued women with notable success before, during, and after his marriage. He fathered a son out of wedlock before he was married, and he and his wife raised the child along with two children of their own.

In short, Ben Franklin lived life to the hilt in so many directions that all we can do in making a fair guess about the organizing adventure of his life is to look at the choices he made when push came to shove in his affairs.

Here are some of the pertinent facts from the biographical sources I cited above:

(1) He ran away from home and from an apprenticeship under his abusive brother to escape physical mistreatment.

(2) He and Deborah spent 18 years of their 44-year marriage apart. (Deborah refused to travel abroad.)

(3) He invented a heat-efficient stove (the Franklin stove) but refused to take out a patent on it because he intended it purely as a public benefit.

(4) He retired from printing in 1748, but engaged in other businesses, in public affairs, and scientific pursuits.

(5) He lost his Crown appointment as Postmaster General of Philadelphia in 1774 because of his highly vocal support of independence for the colonies.

(6) When he lost his Crown appointment, Franklin left behind him "a legacy of postal roads stretching from Maine to Florida, regular mail service between the colonies and England, and a system for regulating and auditing post offices." (Benjamin Franklin: Man of Letters)

(7) He incurred the wrath of the British Government because he exposed the duplicity of the English Governor of Massachusetts in dealing with the people of that state.

From these facts, we can reasonably infer that the love adventure was not his Franklin's organizing adventure. Neither was the pursuit of money or sex, although he had a healthy interest in these activities. And too much of his life was spent in public affairs after he achieved significant economic success for us to say that the pursuit of knowledge or of scientific knowledge was the organizing adventure of his life.

What we can say about him is that he saw social problems and fixed them. But he functioned as so much more than a politician that trying to think about his life as organized around politics doesn't seem to work, either. In fact, to see Franklin clearly, we may have to move up a level: Ben Franklin lived in a time that invited new ways of doing things in all areas of life, and he pursued targets of opportunity in every area of life that moved him to action.

I put it this way to myself in thinking about Ben Franklin: He was a pure beneficent change-maker. He saw so many opportunities to improve his own life and the lives of others that he moved from project to project in the direction that he saw the greatest need for change to be. He was one of the movers and shakers of his age and a prime facilitator of change. He was fortunate in having the mental equipment and other inner qualities that made this kind of life possible for him.

In the way of the usual organizing adventures of life, these observations pretty much leave us with only one choice:

We have to say, or at least consider the possibility, that the organizing adventure of Ben Franklin's life was the marriage adventure.

The marriage adventure is an adventure in which two people commit themselves to become a single social, economic, and psychological unit. They bind themselves together to make the best life for themselves that they can. They work together, and they share the burdens and the benefits that come their way. It is the most intimate of partnerships.

The general expectation is that they will love each other and limit their sex lives to each other and they will probably have children and raise them.

When this is the case, the marriage adventure is still a different thing from these other adventures. The love adventure, for example, may die a natural death within the marriage adventure and still leave the marriage adventure pretty much intact as a matter of convenience or necessity. Two people whose marriage adventure is the organizing adventure of their lives may agree by mutual consent to live their sexual adventures outside of marriage, and this may not necessarily destroy the marriage. It could depend on the people involved. And the adventure of having and raising children may not even materialize within a marriage without having any great effect on the quality of the marriage. Again, it depends on the people involved.

 

The Franklins certainly fit the profile here. Indeed, they were so successful in their partnership early on in life that their resources gave Ben in particular a base to work from in pursuing his other interests.

Indeed, we almost have to say that Ben Franklin's later life grew up from the base of his successful marriage adventure. Or we might put the matter this way: Ben Franklin's marriage adventure with Deborah was so successful as the early organizing adventure of his life that he was able to go on in his later life to make a larger public adventure the organizing adventure of his life. And he was able to do so without abandoning his marriage adventure or even undermining it in any substantial way.

And so we might say that:

(1) The organizing adventure for Ben Franklin, at least in his later life, was the pursuit of changes to improve the general quality of life in his society, watershed changes that the nature of the times made possible for the first time in human history.

Or we could say that:

(2) The organizing adventure for Ben Franklin, at least in his later life, was the satisfaction of his curiosity on a grand scale with a careful balance between satisfying his own needs and promoting the general good of his society. He seems always to have been asking himself, "How does this work and how can we make it work better?" "Why can't we do things this other way instead of what we do now?" And he had a happy knack for asking questions about matters of consequence, as well as generally coming up with answers.

I rather like this way of thinking about Ben Franklin in terms of successive organizing adventures.

But it may well be fair to say that the organizing adventure of his life was always something like one of these last two ways of thinking about it and that his successful marriage adventure was always a secondary adventure. It was just the way he went about establishing a base to work from.

In any case, the range and substance of Ben Franklin's contributions to our society suggest to me that he may have been the greatest person of his age, and simply saying that he created a successful organizing adventure in his marriage doesn't quite seem to do him justice.




My Paternal Grandfather

One of the most important things you can do with the concepts at this Web site is to use them in "getting a handle on" the members of your family. The concepts can help to distance you just enough from your relatives and from the intimate process of thinking about them for you to see them with some clarity.


I don't know how it is with you, but I seldom had relatives say very much to me about themselves or other people in the family when I was growing up. In my later years, though, I did get some scattered stories and insights, and the information cleared up some of the mysteries of my family for me.

Among the things that were kept from me when I was young was information about my father's father. He died when I was five, and I remember crying at the news, not because he was dead and that was a bad thing, but because I had picked up on the fact that the rides in his big black Pontiac with the elongated head of an Indian chief as a hood ornament were gone forever. The car would not become my father's property. It would be sold. (As is normal, I suppose, I was little more than a bundle of childish egocentric needs and desires at the age of five.)

Oddly enough, I have no specific memory of being in that car, and I have only one memory of my grandfather: I remember him giving me a small glass of ginger ale, telling me to drink it, and laughing at the face I must have made when it burned my small tongue and my nostrils. I recall being a bit on edge about the whole project at the time and of feeling a bit embarrassed, irritated, and put upon. Even though I rather liked the ginger ale, I didn't like being laughed at.

That's absolutely it for me when it comes to my memories of the man.

 

But over the years, I learned enough of the bare facts about him to narrow down the organizing adventure of his life, if not to work it out completely.

He was an Englishman and an orphan when he first came to this country. He was sixteen years old and making a trip with a family party to visit various family members around the world before entering into some kind of apprenticeship in an office in London. The itinerary began in Philadelphia, and the party intended to go through Texas, on to South America, then to India, and finally back to England.

He did not want to return to London and serve as an apprentice. So, while the party was in Texas, as the story goes, he was sitting along the road outside the home he was visiting, feeling greatly irritated with his life and his family. A muleskinner came by on his wagon and struck up a conversation with him, and he simply rode off with the muleskinner.

I don't know much about his first twenty years here (except that he was married and divorced somewhere along the line in that period), but at the age of 35 or so, he was a conductor on the Cotton Belt Railroad and living in Pine Bluff, Arkansas.

I have been given to understand that railroad conductors in those early years were in charge of the train. They essentially gave the orders as to what was to be done and how it was to be done. They had pretty much the status in the public mind that airline pilots have had in more recent times.

He married my grandmother in the early part of the twentieth century, when she was seventeen, and they did not live happily ever after.

My grandmother went into her marriage with significant cash and real estate as her dowry, and in that time and place, the woman's property became her husband's property upon her marriage. She simply ceased to have any control over the money matters in her life.

The attitudes that my grandfather brought into his marriage seem to have been pretty much the attitudes of the English gentleman of the late nineteenth century. In particular, he viewed my grandmother's money as his to do with as he pleased, and with his income as a conductor to supplement the pile of resources my grandmother brought into his life, he lived very well.

He spent my grandmother's money on liquor, automobiles, and other women that he supported in the various places that he traveled to in his work. He also reestablished contact with his family in England and brought two very austere maiden aunts to live with him and my grandmother. At least one of them had allegedly been a seamstress to Queen Victoria, and my grandmother (as she told me many years later) found them very intimidating. (And indeed, even the pictures I remember of them were very intimidating.)

He was abusive in many ways, and he and my grandmother were separated from time to time. They never divorced, though, and he always came back.

In the end, he timed his death perfectly. My grandmother was left with no money and the real estate that was left was mortgaged for as much as the banks would loan. All she had were a wife's pension from the railroad and title to her home, to one rental house, and to a few lots. The South being the way it was, she also had her social status, which was significant. (She was a DAR, UDC, Garden Club type and, as I recall, served as state president of one or more these organizations.) She supplemented her income after her husband's death by giving piano lessons in her home and by selling women's corsets and other undergarments. I am reasonably certain that my parents also kicked in whatever they could from time to time.

I hesitate to say that she lived in poverty after her husband died. I spent a lot of time in her home and never felt any sense of deprivation, although I certainly never felt any sense of luxury, either. Her refrigerator, for example, was the oldest working piece of electrical machinery that I have ever seen, and the stove that she cooked on was unique in my memory in its antiquity. But both appliances did work, and they worked very well. And I was always given to understand that political and social access were mine for the asking, which actually seemed to be the case a couple of times in my life, even though I made the decision very early on that I was not going to be a part of the Southern society scene.

I came over the years to think of my grandfather as a scoundrel. But he was probably no worse than your average nineteenth-century English gentleman adventurer type who "made a good marriage." The money was there. It was essentially his to spend, and he spent it. He probably expected his sons to follow his example and marry money, too — which neither of them chose to do, probably in reaction to the example that he set for them. My father, at least, had very little use for his father and his father's ways.

My grandfather had a good deal of charm and presence. He even ran for mayor once, but lost. He died from a heart attack, as I understand it, on the sidewalk outside of a bar on Main Street. I also understand that his doctor had told him that his next drink could kill him.

 

So, what was the organizing adventure of his life?

My best guess is that the marriage adventure was the organizing adventure of his life — but that his conception of the marriage adventure was so different from my grandmother's (and so different from the Franklin's conception in the previous case) that the experience could not be a happy one for either party.

My grandfather was profoundly egocentric, and in his mind, marriage was not a partnership in anything like the way that most of us think of marriage as a partnership today. But it may also be that his attitude towards marriage and women was so strongly sanctioned in the England of his early youth and in this country in the early twentieth century that he saw absolutely nothing wrong with any of the abuse that he inflicted on my grandmother. Her body, her property, and indeed the world itself were his by right as the son of an English gentleman. It was the duty of his sons to follow his example and marry money. If they chose not to do so, that was their problem.

On the other hand, it may be that he saw life in terms of his sex and money adventures, which included whatever he could acquire in marriage. If this is the right perspective on him, I can't really determine whether money or sex was the organizing adventure of his life, but it could certainly have been one or the other of them. The only other possibility I can see has to do with preserving his self-image, and that adventure is so dependent upon inner realties that I have no idea how to give the concept any substance here.

Love was certainly not the organizing adventure of his life. Neither was any form of business or public service, and in spite of what may have been certain romantic notions in the public mind of his age, I doubt that being a railroad conductor actually had sufficient substance as a career to be the organizing adventure of anyone's life. And there is no indication at all in the remarks I have heard that he was interested in maintaining the social position of the family he married into. In his mind, I would guess that he carried with him (in his perception of himself as an English gentleman with consequential relatives) all of the social prestige that he required.

Upon reflection, I would classify his life as one of the saddest stories I know because of its effects on his wife and children. I suspect, though, that he saw things quite differently. I would guess in fact that he found his life more than satisfactory, even though I can't help but wonder if that's true.


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